Since I’ve been practicing Yoga and meditation, I’ve hardly ever felt lonely. I gradually, piece by piece, bridged the gap between my inner self and a higher power, developing the feeling of eternal connectedness in the process. I also learnt that I was never alone because I had truly befriended myself.
Recently, I’ve felt that I have been neglecting myself – my desires, my dreams, my thoughts. They’ve all been oppressed. I feel that the bridge is fully intact, still sparkling and glistening but I haven’t been using it as much as I want to – I really hope this all makes sense.
Because I haven’t been ‘visiting’ my inner self and the higher power as much, I’m starting to feel lonely and disconnected. I know that I have my amazing family, friends and boyfriend but sometimes the only person who understands me is… me – and things can be difficult to explain to those who are accepting of me regardless of my woohoo mind.
What do I do now?
I need to start feeding myself happy thoughts and make full use of the bridge that I’ve built. I know this will make me feel connected again. But, first – I need to make sure I’m happy and content in this world so I don’t use the bridge as an escape. That’s not what I want – I don’t want to escape, I just want to feel connected and be happy, both by myself and with the fabulous people around me.